Lyric of the Week

Even though this last Wednesday, May 25th passed without much happening out of the ordinary it was actually mine and Breck's 9th wedding anniversary. I think we may have briefly said "happy anniversary" to each other during our normal morning rush as we headed out the door; no excitement or fanfare whatsoever. Admittedly I woke up that morning not even remembering the significance of the day and might not have said anything at all if Breck hadn't initiated the greeting. It's not that I don't/didn't remember that May 25th is our anniversary it's just that since we have plans for a quick romantic getaway this weekend I kind of had it in my head that today (Friday, May 27th) was our anniversary. For that reason I hadn't planned on giving Breck my usual hand-made card/poem until the weekend.

Not a smart idea I realized as Wednesday evening was winding down and we were getting ready to go to bed when Breck not-so-subtly mentioned she didn't get a gift or a card or any real acknowledgment of the significance of the day from me. 

Oh, I...umm...

Though not a huge blunder this little incident can be added to the very long and ever-growing list of mistakes I continue to make; almost daily. But despite my many faults, shortcomings, and other various offenses my lovely wife chooses to remain just that: my lovely wife. She continues to love me and to take me as I am.

"I can't go back and I don't want to 'cause all my mistakes they brought me to you."

So instead of having regrets I'm thankful for all that has happened in my past because it has resulted in my present; and today is great.

I love you, Breck. Happy Anniversary.

Artist: The Avett Brothers

Song: All My Mistakes

Album: Emotionalism (2007) 

Lyric of the Week

As the title of this blog indicates: I don't know what I'm doing. That has never been more evident than this week.

Failing DIY projects. Failing test scores. Failing tasks at work.

"Wouldn't it be nice if we could live twice in just one life; and then we'd know what to do"

Maybe I'll get it right in the next life.

Artist: The Promise Ring

Song: Skips A Beat (Over You)

Album: Very Emergency (1999)

Lyric of the Week

Despite the news this morning that we were awarded two new projects, I’m still feeling a little bit nervous about the uncertain future of our firm. At the end of next week one of my colleagues (and our firm’s senior architect) will retire. Last month two of our other architects left the firm (voluntarily) within a week of each other for supposed greener pastures. In December our longest-tenured architect at the firm decided to move on to bigger & better things; and last August one of our Intern Architects (& former classmate of mine) left to go work for his uncle’s architectural firm.

So if you’re keeping track that’s five architects in less than 9 months who have left our firm.

Is there something in the water? Is it the lack of windows in our office? Maybe it’s all the exposed denim insulation in the ceiling?

It could have something to do with the two across-the-board pay cuts we've received in the last year...

Just a thought.

I'm still here, but I have to speculate that I may be next. I can't help but wonder:

"Am I part of the cure? Or am I part of the disease?"

Artist: Coldplay

Song: Clocks

Album: A Rush of Blood to the Head (2002)

Lyric of the Week

Because this song was written by two brothers for their mom who raised them without their dad around there are a couple of lines in the song that are pertinent to my situation. However their love and caring for their mother is very evident.

Mom, because your one of the two people that actually read this blog I know you'll get this message:

I love you mom. You taught me how to love and care. You taught me kindness and respect. You taught me hard work. You made me into the man I am today (I hope you take that as the compliment it was intended) .

"Always, always and forever

I'm sitting here
I'm thinking back to a time when I was young
My memory is clear as day
I'm listening to the dishes clink
You were downstairs you would sing
Songs of praise
And all the times we laughed with you
And all the times that you stayed true to us

Now we'll say thank you
I'll always thank you
More than you could know
Than I could ever show
And I love you
I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do
To say these word to you
That you're beautiful forever

Always, always and forever

You were my mom, you were my dad
The only thing I ever had was you, it's true
And even when the times got hard
You were there to let us know that we'd get through
You showed me how to be a man
You taught me how to understand
The things people do
You showed me how to love my God
You taught me that not everyone knows the truth

And I thank you
I'll always thank you
More than you could know
Than I could ever show
And I love you
I'll always love you
There's nothing I won't do
To say these words to you
That you will live forever

Forever and ever"

*NOTE: The recording I have of this song is from their album and is actually a secret song that plays after the last track. Because my audio editing skills are not up to par, I simply uploaded the entire file, so this week you get two-for-one on songs. Fast forward to the 4:43 mark where the Thank You Mom song begins.

Artist: Good Charlotte

Song: Thank You Mom

Album: Good Charlotte (2000)